so to be clear, i will be taking medication, its respiridone 3mg given to me a year and a half ago. though the supposed thing is im not wanted for hiring per kin that im completely reliant on until i do. they will handle the medical aid etc. my money comes from online but not enough for self-suffieciency. The first thing for autonomy i need is identification, which i dont have, i have an expired passport and a police statement stating i lost it in relocation. so yeah im taking the medication, signing the medical aid - i practically work, sleep, netflix or take walks at the beach. there was a person living with us for free - not related, used to date my cousin. he got work with my family, and no one really likes him, or he wouldve not had to stay with me, which was a bummer. i did lose my job because of him and he was a snitch and scaredy cat for some insecure reason im not sure about, i didnt take it out on him, not even a conversation since he'd record our conversation, yes, my conversation was more about boundaries (he stole my sneakers to work in the garden). i feel its a lost in autonomy (not really) abusive. exploitive. also catch-22 since medical aid is a long process. also i feel a lot of T&C's since the meds were simply a responsive experiment for possible depression. so i don't mind taking it. its just that when i ask chatgpt, im like wtf - these red flags are happening.