WIBTA if i dont tell my partner how i feel due to my past? Hello redditors, obvious throwaway account here. So i M (23) grew up in a very religious household. I used to be gay and had several relationships with men when i was teenager (slept with them too). My parents found out about it and it did not went well. I had to go through conversion therapy in order not to be disowned. The experience was so traumatic that i didnt have relationships for years. Cue a year ago, i met this beautiful and sweet lady (F23) and it made me want to dive back in relationship and try it out with her. We perfectly match with each other and i pretty sure shes my soulmate at this point. Wer madly in love with each other. The thing is, whenever we touched or hold hands or even cuddled, i would feel so ashamed and disgusted with myself that someone so sweet and innocent would want to be with someone like me that is tainted and impure so to speak. It got so bad at one point that after she left my place after our dates/hangout, i would cry for hours and cut my arms because i didnt feel like im worth her love/touches. I contemplated on telling her how i feel, but im afraid this would strain our relationship and make her feel disgusted towards me. I just dont know what to do at this point. We live in a very religious country and this sort of thing is taboo. So i dont know how she will react. So WIBTA if i just suck it up and dont tell her? Im afraid it will get worse