I (25F) have been with my boyfriend (29M) For 7 months. Our relationship is healthy - we share the same goals, values and outlooks on life. Both of us come from toxic relationships. Things between us moved quickly, our first two dates in the same weekend and we started getting ready to make things exclusive. I was an avid Snapchat user and my BF will not download it. I had a two male friends I talked to on a regular basis platonically and kept streaks with. By the end of the first month of us dating my boyfriend was uncomfortable with these relationships so I ended them and removed them and all other males off my Snapchat. About a month after my BF found past conversation on Facebook messenger with a guy I talked to a few months before we had met. I didn’t realize they were there and didn’t think it would matter since it was prior to our relationship. I had no problem deleting the conversation and started going through all my other conversations and deleted up to a year of us meeting. The conversation also brought up how I cheated the entire first month by talking to my friends on Snapchat - having opposite gender friends was fine in other past relationship so I didn’t think it would have been a problem. I know now how it was emotional cheating even though the conversation was platonic. A few months pass and he came on a family trip where I saw a girl messaged him. The conversation consisted of heavy flirting, explicit photos and videos and discussions of sex the night before our second date. He didn’t respond after we were officially together. I didn’t say a word until he had a bad day and brought up how he couldn’t believe I cheated the first month with the snapchat. I told him what I found and agreed the conversation was from past relationships reflecting on ours and he asked that I don’t hold it against him or bring up his one text chain I found. He deleted the text and said he didn’t care they were there because it was in the past. When he has really stressful days he brings up the cheating thing and we have had about 6-8 conversations about it. I reassure him I know it was wrong and I know better now than to have guys as friends. This past weekend he scrolled through my phone and found a heavily flirty text conversation that I believe was a year ago and he thinks was from before we met or in that first month from when the last text was sent. I thought I had deleted all the conversation that were recent but there is a chance I missed one and didn’t realize it was there. I told him it was just as bad as the text I found and he tells me that I was turning the conversation on him, which I wasn’t, I was trying to make the point that it was the same. He brought up that I cheated on him the entire first month. I deleted the text and blocked the sender. He’s mad because we keep having these conversations and I try to resolve them. I love him more than anything and would never intentionally hurt him. AIAH?