For context: My sister has always been asking me to invite her to my travels. She would always ask why I didnt invite her or she would often invite me to travel but I would decline. I was able to booked one of my travel bucketlist for next year and then hours later she asked me if she can join me na lang cause her husband dont want to accompany her. Another reason why she always prefer to be with me when it comes to travel is because her husband doesnt have the patience to take pictures while I am supportive in taking pictures. I declined her because I know that im just gonna be a photographer for her and I really want to enjoy the scenic views on that trip and have a peaceful vacation. We also have different traveling styles as she is thrifty when it comes to food, while I spend more on food cause thats what I look forward to. She also has this moody or “busit” attitude when she doesn’t get what she wants that I have experience in our previous travel that kinda easily ruin the day. She also has this strict husband that wont even allow her to party even if she’s with me and they would always fight thru the phone that would ruin her mood. So Im sure that Im gonna compromise or adjust a lot and have restriction just to accommodate to her and I dont really wanna be thinking about anyone else this time especially how big deal this place to me as it is one of my dream destination. Its also the same case with my brother, he would often invite me travel and would even offer to treat me but I always declined because I dont really like his company because of his arrogant and boastful way of talking. He is also thrifty when it comes to food. He is the type to eat in a McDonald’s or convenience store while traveling. He doesnt really immerse in the culture of food which is in opposite my priority in traveling. I also have this younger sister that wants to travel. I also want them to experience this things but I know that Id have to be a brother thats gonna take care of her and would always think of her safety. I really enjoy my time alone or with people that I know Im compatible with my traveling style and interest. I dont even invite most of my friends as there is only one person I can think of that Im surely and completely compatible with when it comes to traveling. I rarely travel also and I have just been starting thats why I really want to enjoy whenever I do. But rn, I really feel guilty like it feels heavy in my chest that I cant shake. I even thought of booking another trip to another destination just to make it up to her. I just hope that I can be selfish and feel no guilt about it. I rarely choose myself over my love ones but every time it doesn’t feel right.