This morning she calls me at 8am to wake me up and tell me her cousin passed and that she took off work and wants me to come over to keep her company. I can admit I am a really grumpy person in the morning so I was listening but half asleep. I had never heard of her cousin before so I’m like who? She’s talked about her family a lot and I’ve never heard of this particular cousin so it threw me off. It also really irritated me that she called me so early. She knows I go to bed at 4/5am most nights so 8am is like 3/4 hours of sleep for me. If it was someone I thought she was close to (parents, closer cousins) I’d honestly get up and go over to her right now. And I’ve done stuff like that in the past. But they’ve never talked about this person before. I told her I’m gonna get some more rest, get some work done (cuz I work from home) and then see about coming over. I didn’t want to agree off that bat cuz tbh I really don’t want to go to hers. I play volleyball every Monday and it’s honestly like the one thing that brings me joy in the week. I don’t want to diminish her pain or sadness over her cousin cuz I know that she is hurting and I feel like an asshole not wanting to comfort my friend. But like I don’t want to miss vball (which is only on Mondays) to go to her house and just sit there and smoke weed. Also, for more context, she has cats that I’m allergic too so I have to wear a mask when I’m at her house. Also she hates my bf so I always have to go to her house cuz she never wants to come to mine (since me and him live together). And I literally hate the trip I have to take on public transport to get to her house. I kinda want to make em excuse so I don’t have to go am I being a mega asshole rn 😭