I'm friends with Mia, John and David (fake names). One evening, after a concert was canceled, I invited John and David to my house. They came with Jack, who I also considered a friend. Jack and David were drunk, only John was sober. Despite everything, they drank again and David, completely drunk, kept trying to get closer to me, which always bothers John. When David could no longer stand, I helped him go to sleep. Then, I found myself alone with Jack, he who idealizes our group of friends thinking they were perfect, while drinking, I confided in him. I told him about my family: my father cheating on my mother, my mother being mentally ill and absent for several weeks, my fear of managing school, conservatory and work alone. Then I talked about my psychiatric hospitalization two years ago after the hassle. At the time, conflicts in our group had exploded: John had lost his friend Mike, Mia and John had turned against me, belittled and isolated me. They later apologized, but it remains a wound for me. Since then, I have become suspicious, convinced that John and Mia are talking about me behind my back. To Jack, I even showed an old conversation where they discredited my suffering, even though I don't know why I did that. I told him again that it was in the past and that I wanted to preserve my relationship with John, but my fears remained. Tired, I went to sleep. The next day, at Mike's birthday, everything broke. Jack had repeated to John and David what I had told him when I went to sleep, exaggerating some of the details. John got angry, thinking I was manipulating Jack against him. He criticized me for showing this conversation and even, according to him, for being too close to a drunk David. Then he went to talk to Mia about it, trying to get her on his side. I felt betrayed by Jack and stupid for having confided such personal things. Out of context, my criticisms took on enormous proportions. I apologized, but I know that's not enough. It took me a year to regain my friendship with John, and I feel like I've ruined everything again.