AITA As of late I've been extremely emotional waiting to hear something that may never come. I had a kid at 16. The dad was abusive. To the point my school counselor took photos and tried to get me to press charges. His own brother called police while he was beating me and told me I was ignorant for telling the police nothing happened. Now after leaving I lost custody because I was a minor and his mother (grandma ) was deemed custodial. I kept up visiting for a while but eventually he kept telling me at ever visit that he didn't want to see me. That they told him he had to. So I stopped forcing it. It's been about 12 years now with me reaching out here and there, but never with an answer. I am trying yet again, he's 16 now and I can't find him on social but his father and the woman his father was cheating with and married afterwards have social. I feel at this point if he really wants nothing to do with me it should be his choice with all the FACTS laid out for him.... Not whatever they've told him. Call me a deadbeat or whatever you want. I've called myself worse over the years 🤷🏼♀️. I just want to know if I should stop before I get myself more worked up and hurting over something that'll never happen. I'd love nothing more than to have a relationship with him. But I'm torturing myself waiting to see if hopefully his grandma will pass on the message.